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as if it was real
as if it had never happened
as if it was going to last forever
as if it was made of glass
as if you cared either way
as if I was dreaming of Spain
as if it was my idea and not Suzy’s
as if I could taste the difference
as if he could be bothered
as if you could here me
as if there was someone inside me saying go on, go for it
as if I was some kind of film star
as if he was a girl
as if I was a man or someone older
as if it counted in the scheme of things
as if I was a grain of sand
as if mermaids existed
as if it was important to keep it dry
as if it didn’t matter
as if he really loved me
as if there really was someone out there watching over us
as if god was real
as if money wasn’t important
as if it was the middle of summer
as if just being here was enough
as if the sixties had never happened
as if it wasn’t obvious from the start that it would end in disaster
as if there had never been another
as if it looked like a dog in the first place
as if its feet were too big for its body
as if she held all the winning cards
as if I could care less
as if everybody knew what he was thinking
as if she had been awake for too long
as if it was never going to end
as if there was a secret chart to get you to the heart of this or any other matter
as if he did it just to prove it could be done
as if living like that was a way of getting one up on everyone else
as if I loved him
as if her shoes said it all
as if just being there was enough
as if they were stuck together with glue
as if no one else cared
as if anyone could here him anyway
as if it was important just to be seen to be involved
as if just talking about it was going to make it go away
as if it had always been like that
as if by magic
as if Natalie could help me now
as if their whole lives depended on it
as if it was hovering just above the surface of the water
as if it was made of chocolate
as if she had a secret friend
as if fairies had collected all the flowers and put them in a little pile
as if he wasn’t there
as if it had suddenly worn off
as if he’d known from the very start how it would end
as if a couple of paracetamol could cure anything
as if he’d never seen her face
as if the answer to everything was in his pocket
as if six was nine
as if everyone knew what was going on
as if the feeling would last forever
as if she never went out except when she was on holiday
as if shoes were the most important thing in the world
as if she was asleep
as if more food made you more energetic
as if it was something she’d never had to deal with before
as if politicians knew what they were talking about
as if very rich people were better off than us
as if one mistake makes someone incompetent
as if to have something in order makes you somehow more in control of it
as if maths was easy
as if every one was the same
as if we had a god given right to safety
as if there was a better way
as if you could understand this
as if it made any sense anyway
as if it was all going to be alright
as if you or I could feel like them and know it to be true
as if it was very close and far away at the same time
as if you really cared
as if he was me and I was him
as if there was an easy way to tell you
as if it was safe to live in Bogata
as if you had a half-sister
as if your daughter had been a boy
as if it mattered
as if the sun was on my back
as if it would never end
as if Mozambique was in Europe
as if your mum was younger than you
as if everyone had to wear black in the street
as if anyone had the right to tell someone else how to behave or what to do
as if we could be good all the time
as if there was a crocodile waiting for you at home in the kitchen
as if chocolate was good for your teeth
as if pink was the new black
as if truth was somehow out there